well, today was exceptionally fun. wen class then came home and i cleared my room! FINALLY! well, my room's always clean but jus tat i dun reali feel that its clean...so i did my own clearin and NOW its clean...haha... ok then ltr i went to Esplanade to see my cousin's gig. well she's my band's drummer but she has a band of her own and its the bulletproof band from junior jams. ok they're not as good as us but its an exception. after all, they've got fame from the tele and we dun so ya. i tink if we were to perform, it'll be better than them, i'm DEFINETE! all, my other cousins turned up for the gig. in fact, my relatives came down to watch her perform. we had a gatherin after tat, wen to marina for dinner. cool eh? haha. yea. and then went home. gosh! im tired reali. altho i din do much but i felt lyk i did. ah in any case, i tink im gonna turn in early tonight! for a change.....

cool, i made a record yesterday! it was the first time i woke up at 5pm. ok to be exact, i woke up at 1649hr to be precise! haha. well yea. cool i can wake up that late. and today, i jus got up. decided to blog this down so that i can remember that i DID wake up late! haha.

cant reali blame me rite? i mean i sleep late, and im always tired. so that's why i sleep a lot. ok. im young, and i use loads of energy! so in order to replenish all the lost energy, i gotta recharge by sleepin! haha. alrite.

hey! and you know what, this world's always full of problem! haiya. never for once can i get by without bumping into a problem! sighs....

at least dad got a new car, so that's smth different for once. heh. the rest's still the same. damn sad la. haha...

alrite, well today was okok, wasn't at all great but i guess tis is how it's so. anyway, ytd went out wif abel, aqilah and sam. well abel wanted to get his bloody ipod classic (damn!!) so i decide to help in findin the cheapest one tats available. after tat we met up with the girls and went for a movie, watched BALLS OF FURY! man, it was good! haha. its reali reali dumb but hu cares! as long as we enjoyed it so its ok. well, i guess the o level fellos are gonna sit for their most-important-in-life exam paper soon. well all the best guys! after that can party! haha. another problem came up once again yesterday night wen i was goin home. reali reali reali weird. i dunno, my feelins were affected yet agn, i tink the reason behind it is cos i still feel for her. no doubt abt that. i reali wanna see her for once and jus talk my heart out in front of her. i dun reali care how the ending's like cos i can roughly picture it but the bottom line is i hope i can meet her and jus talk, mayb take her out for dinner or go for a walk. well. it all depends if she has the guts to meet me. after all its still her decision..... well. i guess that's how it's like..!

a change to my boring life. FINALLY! today, i went jamming withe chris, dickson, kai and my cousin. boy, we sure need loads of practice. After i think about 2 months of not practisin, we were reali reali rusty, not to mention that we forgot certain part of the songs. well...
after our warm up, we finally got evrything back. well. it sounded shaky at the start but once we got the hang of it, everything fell perfectly. that's that. after our session, we went on down to play lan. we played battlefield for about 2hrs then went for dinner. not bad for a day like this; after being cooped up at home for so long. i felt better after leaving the hse, oh well. tmr hve to go work, argh...the idea of workin reali is boring, but then agn, i chose to do it. so ive got to live with it. yea...thats about it..

update agn soon...

when ur bored. this is what you do.. anyway, took this off someone's blog, but i changed it to suit myself :) A - AVAILABLE?: nope B - BEST SPORT?: soccer C - CRUSH?: too many... D - DOGS NAME?: Madhu :) E - EASIEST PERSON(s) TO TALK TO?: close friends F - FAV. COLOR?: black, red, white. G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS?: NONE H - HOMETOWN?: WOOLANDS I - INSTRUMENT?: guitar J - favorite juice?: soursop K - KIND OF MUSIC?: Rock genres L - LONGEST CAR RIDE?: to Perlis M - MILK FLAVOR?: strawberry N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS?: 1 O - ONE WISH: love her P - Phobia/Fears?: erm..none i tink... Q - FAVORITE QUOTE?: ask Syafiq, he has loads of good quotes R - REASON TO SMILE?: Funny S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: I don't love you T- TIME YOU WOKE UP TODAY?: 2:34pm U - UNKNOWN FACTS ABOUT ME: not sure either... V - VEGETABLE YOU DONT LIKE?: ladies' finger W - WORST HABIT?: wake up early X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD?: too many.. Y - YUMMY FOOD?: erm, something satisfying Z - ZODIAC/ASTROLOGY SIGN? AQUARIUS In one sentence, explain 1.Yesterday: fun and enjoyable 2. What made u smile today? Abdil and he's crack personality 3. What were u doing this morning at 8a.m.? sleeping(obviously!!) 4. What were u doing 15 minutes ago? eating 5. Something that happened to u in 1985? Not sure, cant rmb! 6. Last thing someone else said to you? gotta put my sisters to bed. 7. What was ur answer?- alrite sure, take your time. 8. Worst thing currently on television: advertisements 9. What was in e mail today?- friendster emails 10. How many different beverages have you drank today?- 2 11. What is ur favorite part of the day? Noon 12. Your current To-do list? find a pick 13. Where is ur best friend right now? clubbing 14. What color is ur toothbrush?- red 15. What are u wearing right now?- shorts only 16. Any plans for Friday night? yea, a date:) 17. Least favorite place to shop? causeway point 18. things u bought today?- a pack and guitar strings 19. Last gift you received?- a slap 20. Who gave you that?- a girl la 21. What made you sad today?- she din msg at ALL! 22. Who can make you happy?- her... 23. Love is: cruel 24. Describe your key chain: short and sharp 25. Where do u keep ur change?- my pocket 26. Are u happy with ur life?- nope. 27. What are u thinking now- her... 28. Person u trust the most?- mayb she... i think thats it. toooo long to go on. have fun reading....

haha. damn! ytd was fun. went down to the streets of geylang to get my clothes for the upcoming festival. well, the whole bloody place's full of ppl. (aint it obvious?) yea and so it was reali packed and the cars cud hardly move. anyway, b4 that, we were gathered at Safuwan's house to celebrate his 16th birthday. it was good. his mum cooked up a storm for us, especially the soup tulang! so we ate an dafter that went to do our own stuffs. we sat down, talk talk, crack jokes blah blah, the usual. and time does fly wen ur having fun. we started at 7 and nxt thing you know, its alredy 9 so at that time, i made my move and left to go meet my family in geylang. ok, that was that. now on to another situation. well a week ago, i thot it had ended but last night, all the feelings and anger came back, almost as if it was on standby mode and someone had pushed the "on" button, bringing it back to life. it was reali wild last night. It started out wif violent behaviour and languages and both us weren't so giving so we reali fought hard ti not give in at all! anyway, it went on for a good 2hours before this emotional drama subsided, which i finally succumbed to her and allowed her to say wat was on her mind while i listen... i reali hurt her badly this time, i cant explain how i noe but all i can say is that during the convo, i felt wat she was feeling, although i dunno if those were her true feelings but all the more, it was rather bad and i felt it. & I felt bad after that, doesnt matter. Now i noe y we hardly talk anymore. Of course time is what we need but do i have that much time to give? haha. of course! not studyin anymore.... anyway, despite the heated argument, all went well after that. im glad i got it out of my system. anyway, ytd was a reali great day. even the conversation left an impression on me, haha. im still astounded by what we said last night, but im pretty sure it happened for a reason :)

oh man! its gettin reali reali weird with each passin day. well. 1stly i've been reali bored, i mean i used to msg a lot but evr since i broke up its been reali reali diff. well. of cos! how else wud it b? cant b the same aft a break-up rite? weird...haha. damn dumb la. went out to day wif madhu but like only a few hours cos my parents last min tell me i must go Johore. what cock. spoil my fun only. ah well. hu cares. now madhu's at my hse now, at this very min and at evry sec tat im typin this so ya. haha. playin ps2! well he cant get over the fact that he cant beat me and my bro at winning11. oh well. cant blame him rite? :) well. its my turn to take over the control now. gonna trash him. as usual la....

a series of eventful nights took place over the pass few nights and i myself cant belive it happened! well. started off with work. well. usually it was boring and all but suddenly, aft 1 wk of not workin, it felt great workin at tat place. some how, the staffs n all were so funny. and when business got reali hectic,evry1 was helpin 1 another. it was great. well then furthermore at night, she msged me! well. i shud be happy rite? well...ya...a bit happy la. considering tat i noe the truth FINALLY! well. it was reali a drama night. i cant believe it happened. anyhow, i still have doubts abt her tho, aft wat happened. i still dunno if tat is the truth reali, after all, she lied to me in the 1st place. oh well...shit happens aite?

the other nights were great too. spent time wif frens and my cousins which i hardly have the time to do so cos of my busy schedule. but it was worth it. now i reali cant wait for the week to come. dun reali noe wats installed for me but hey..! tats life aint it? full of surprises...haha.

tats abt it. nth much happened in the day cos i practically slp the whole day, cant blame me. im outa sku n life's like that. haha. well good bye for now. will update agn soon...!

day 3 after our break up and i'm finally feelin better. well. of cos, i din do it alone. well i have my friends to help me out. and they're reali reali helpful. im sure without them i'd done something crazy. heh. well, its only day3 and the feelins are weird, like it comes back and forth, doesnt jus go away for once. well, tats wat you get wen u reali love some1 and they hinder u jus for some1 else....haha! and i thot she was a nice person. but no. the same old idiot that ruins ppl's live cos they think they can jus let go any old how. well. no use talkin abt any of it now rite? its over! haha. anyway, im lookin forward to a better life now, i jus hope i can get back at her someday....any ideas y'all?

there goes my happiness. once again wen i thot i had the chance to change god decides to take that chance away from me. now that im single again i dunno how i feel. i cannot accept the fact that i made the decision to leave her. anyway i deserve better, like what a lot of ppl say i do. i dunno. i guessed i failed miserably as a boyfren. failed to hold on to her for a good period. well. ive done everything possible that a good boyfren would do. i dunno if this new guy would be able to match up to my standards. well yes, i may not be the best lookin but i sure know how to treat a girl right. anyway, since she has already moved on i'd better be on my way as well, but im finding it very hard to do so. mayb cos i reali loved her n not want to let go. sigh. but i have to...anyway, life's cruel. it doesnt give you any chances, it only brings you obstacles that is believed to b stepping stones to life. well. i jus missed that stone and now im falling deep into a hole. i dun tink im able to find my way back now. im reali lost and lonely.....

i guessed that's how life's gotta be right?