I can never understand why there’s so much hate in this world! How can someone find love when the 1st feeling they feel is hate? A story that goes about on how ppl would see it, is probably the only one where you would say ppl find love 1st then hate, but then again why does the word keeps coming back?

Will there ever be love again? If there is a thing called love then why do I feel a painful sensation whenever I am in love? Why does everyone love the hate and hate the love? Why not spread love evenly without the pain?

I would always try and understand how each individual feels but that’s making me an emotional kid, but sometimes I wanna ask those mother fuckers who label me how do they categorize emo kids; by how they’re able to feel for one another??? Fuck this life. I dunno how its considered life when you’re suppose to feel happy, I don’t, all I fucking feel is hate, hate hate hate! Never for once will I feel a solid liking in which I deserve to feel.

Negative comments sure help strengthen someone’s heart but we aren’t deaf, we’re still humans. We can feel, and you faggots out there who dispises us im sure you’re jus full of hatred which you cant release on your on. Take it out and you think it’s a good thing, but what else are you suppose to do? Some may us, I can never understand how you ever know how to decides what’s hate or whether u should bottle it all up.

I respect those who keep things to themselves, they receive all the hurt and hate that’s been thrown at them because honestly that’s how I am. I keep everything bottled up, but when I unleash, a lot of ppl wuden like it.

I cry myself to slp sometimes jus thinking of the pressure that kicks in.

At times, I feel like dying, and i wondered to myself why am I living? Why cant God jus take my life now, wait, is God actually there to hear me out? Does he answers to my prayer whenever I ask for something? Some ppl tells me that God shows you the solution indirectly but seriously, I am too tired to think about the solutions and how it may help me. I jus 1 a straight solution to help me make my life realistic and happy.

I am living in a world full of feelings, if I was immune to all the negative feelings then I might as well be dead. I hate showing it out but somehow I cant jus keep everything to myself. I know sometimes a man has to stand out and show his manly character but like I said earlier, we’re still humans, we have feelings and we can express it, its jus how you do it. I choose to pen it down, but then again I cant write everything out, this jus sucks.

I wanna cry again but wats the use? The feelings would only go away temporarily, once the tears stop coming, everything is thrown back at you so suddenly that you dunno what hit you. Its like knocking yourself against the wall so hard you dun even noe what your hitting.

I’d rather be paralyzed, to not feel anything is the best. I jus want my life to be smooth but then again is it possible? Fuck it….

I’m not gonna ans it, go screw it and find out.