I never really thought it'd be this way but, thanks to my persistancy and hard work, it's finally working out well! It's just being very hopeful, but its a good hope to look forward to. People do say that don't place so much hope on something because if it turns out wrong then everything you had hoped for would just become pain and sorrows. Now i know why i'm always in pain!
It's reali quite tru that motivating you over and over agn doesnt reali help much, but what you do after a motivation speech to drive you on is vital. And I calculated that in about 1 and 1/2 months time I'll become a manger HOPEFULLY! haha.
Oh and what was surprising today was, my 4th generation downline had an appointment today. It was an ordinary distributor appointment, but the what was really unique about this prospect is that his family is FILTHY RICH!
He is so rich till his family need not work and just live off the bank's monthly interest. WOW! And he has like 6-7figures worth of money inside. SIMPLY AMAZING! I wished I was like that tooo..!
Ahh, well, its kinda fun having friends from RP, really cool people to be with. Altho i kinda miss my old friends, its been awhile since I last saw all of em! And the last I saw a part of them was at a gathering recently, but still, haven reali seen the whole bunch.
Well, I have to admit that life's liddat tho. Some come some go and how u accept it is what I wanna noe. Its like love though, they moments come and go like the wind. At first its strong, then it slowly weakens. How you maintain the strength of the wind is one problem, keeping it blowing is another.
I guess I'm never good at all this, and the best part of it is that I thought I was. Well, being egoistic cant get you far in a relationship, sometimes lowering yourself really helps. But then again will I lower myself? Hmm...
The nights are starting to become lonely again. Why is that I just can't let go of the activities that I have? It's a cause in my life that I am like this. Am I selfish or do I just want the better for myself and others? Questions love to fill my mind without solutions. I can never understand why I can't be like my cousins, free and easy-going, with no stress upon them, with nothing to worry about and with no love to ponder over. I am humane and sane like everyone else. But why am I so different from others? What makes me an outcast or someone special to others?
Is this life? Or is this just an imaginary feeling in which I can choose not to have? How come I feel better for others but not myself? I dunno if I am scared or just plainly choose to ignore these signs. I dunno.
Its getting late, and suddenly angers are flooding in again. One moment I was feeling like a bird, free from everything, thinking my problems are solved, and the next, after a conversation, the sudden burst of agony fills my blood. I guess, I should have never started anything. Now that I am too far in it, it's too late to turn back.
But why must I turn back when everytime I feel happiness building up when I am close to her? Why do I feel so good when I smell the rosy fragrance coming from her? Hmmm...I wish to answer those questions but I somehow feel that its all just a fake judgemental skills in which I am poor in. Maybe my feelings aren't true enough yet. Maybe I am not ready to accept it even when I thought I am, now, the only problem is.........
Well another beginning of another chapter in my life story is about to unfold, let us all turn the page.
eddysrah♥
