I don't understand you. At first I thought it was me who was pulling the strings, but no, in turn i realize YOU are the one that's making fine decisions. What is it that you want badly from me? I don't get it, I'm lost...someone please help me?!
Family problems isn't the best to encounter at all, but it does happens. People say that problems, fights arguments all happen because of love, hah! I doubt this family does. Hmmm..what's love when your dad hits you till you bleed like a dog? What's love when your mother decides to take you to the police just because they can't settle some fucking small matter?
I don't understand them at all, they said I'm stupid but hey, I'm smart enough to fool them for about 2months before they found out. haha. But ok, I mean I have to admit, in Singapore it's never easy to get away with situation which you put yourself in. Like how does one get himself away from a murder case? I doubt that'll ever happen in Singapore.
But I ain't saying I was involve in a murder case la, you gotta be kidding me if you did believe that, I just got into some shit with my parents about certain family issues and now here I am, sitting down, wishing I could jus take the lift up and DIE!
Why does life have to be soooo bloody complicated? Why can't it just allow me a simple life in which I can lead happily, without having the idea of being accused or hurt badly!
Maybe some of you have the answer to the question, but I regard this one as a retorical question. So save it!
Today was ok, in a sense that I think I could jus make it on time for some stuffs in which I needed to do. I don't quite understand how everyone feels whenever I talk to them about how I feel.
I don't noe if you feel my pain, and furthermore, if you were in my shoes, what the fuck will you do?
I'm still lost for words and answers. This are just some things in which I would never wanna find out so soon. I just want time and space and to forget all miseries in which I know would go unresolved.
I just want my own life back....
eddysrah♥
