It’s the start of the fucking school term, and weirdly I did enjoy my school holidays. But it was still funny, I din expect it to be so short, neither too long. It seemed balanced and yet it wasn’t enough.

So many things happened during that two weeks, I din have time to blog about what happened during my day and night, but in short, I have been sleeping later than usual and waking up earlier than expected.

I have many friends, and I guess two weeks is not enough to help me meet all my friends that I know, sucks to have so many friends but sadly if I lost everyone then I’d rather have no time to meet them than have no friends.

Anyway, 1st week was spent with my RP mates and the 2nd mostly spent with friends of the past and from work, so that roughly covers all my 50+ friends that I hang closely with.

Thinking back about the pass isn’t an ideal thing to do but sometimes, I do feel hurt and sad whenever I think back how my life was spent, wasted by those who lead me astray. I never understood why I got myself into situations like that, is it because I have an ego in which everyone would admire, or was it mere child’s play to think it was cool to be a part of them. I guess memories are sure hard to forget, I never liked the idea of having to be a part with them, because it was them who partly made me who I am right now, it’s hard to accept that I did change a lot, a change in which I lost ALOT of friends but gained a few. Not knowing what I was doing now I realize the change in me wasn’t a good one, but I can’t help it, it’s hard for me to change but I have to, for friends sake, parents and for most of all MY SAKE!

It’s true being who I am can be cocky and arrogant but still, I dunno how else to portray myself, because for years I have been like this, a born leader with a rough attitude, it’s hard to work with me, I know but what else am I to do?

Love is sometimes in the air, and love is definitely a mystery! I din expect my life to be so weird, but after all, that’s what my friends tell me, including my parents. They said that’s how life can be, weird and always unpredictable. The guys are always on the losing end, that’s love by the way. Girls always have the final say in everything! That seriously sucks but can’t help it. Oh well, I’m still waiting for the right moment to happen, I am counting down my opportunities and soon it will slowly come to slow end.

How to do this is by saying that I only want one girl! That girl knows who she is….

Enough of that, I’m kinda tired with my life, I wanna end it soon but what good does it make? I’m leaving so many people behind and I can’t afford to leave everyone in the ditch so its not time yet but how do I know when will it be?

ONLY GOD KNOWS THIS ANSWER…..