Today, I just when through a whole series of emotional events since morning till now. Its reali mind boggling and pressurising but its ok we need a few of these things to get pass life.
What i realize as i mentioned earlier is that sometimes as a teen we gotta look back at our younger childhood days, its hard for some to do so, let alone realize how much they’ve changed for the past few years.
I have to admit, I jus looked through my younger pics, and I am actually quite sad of the way life has turned out for me. Of the person I’ve become right now. The kid that I once knew is know no longer that same boy that everyone knows. I dun reali know wats become of me, is money the whole issue surrounding life or is life actually surrounding money? Im not sure, and I don’t intend to find out the truth about this. Its hard to accept the fact that I’ve changed, its even harder to face the truth that lies behind everything that our parents has done for us. I mean, guys being fucking ego-istic is indeed a BIG factor behind realizing truth from fantasies. I lost a reali great friend thanks to greediness and selfishness, but in losing that one true friend I realize that there are many others out there that are the same, but not as compared to the one I lost.
Opportunities come and go, its time I take a lead in which path I want to grow into. A path in which I can decide who to walk with and who to forget about, I am a born leader, but a leader with no real brains to lead properly. Ive let a lot of ppl down and ive lost a lot of frens. I dun blame anyone or anything but I blame solely on myself. IF I cant even hang on to a 16 wk relationship then I dun think im worth being called a leader. Indeed the followers of the group sees the results but what about the obstacles, do they see how a leader suffers before becoming an all rounder leader?
It’s time I step up, ive been sitting in the dark for far too long now, my time is almost ready. I hear my name being called up. I see my followers looking up to me for directions and instructions. I see my enemies staring coldly at me.
Life is all about leading. My generals are newly born, they are still new and young, inexperience to read what the enemies are thinking, but I am sure that these generals are have great potential and they can fight without having me to aid them much in battle. I have a queen by my side, a great leader to the pack, and I daresay she’s pretty awesome in her decisions. And sometimes, I feel she’s inferior to me, a mother to them and a sister to me.
I am going to rise like the angel from the ashes, my paths are clear for me and my followers and I know what they want, what they strive for. Teenagers who deal their life by playing all day and “enjoying”, I salute you and say, “To hell with your life, motherfuckers!” while those occupying it with stuffs to improve their strengths and qualities, congrats.
Finally I wanna end off by saying this, its not how we portray our life to be but how we want it to be. I guess there are certain things better left unsaid then to have it being told.
eddysrah♥
