Its really really really sad how a person's life can be so lost and gone just because of money issue...

Its never an easy part of life when money issue becomes the main problem of ur whole entire problem. As far as each and everyone of us teens is concern, we dun wanna step into this kind of situation as we know it will cause more hurt and feel more remorsful abt what's happening.

Well, in total my whole situation rite now is im in money debt and its not nice to be in this kind of shit when you're at my age. I mean, I haven started working and mayb I did earn quite a bit from the previous co but hell? i have not enough to settle my dad. I mean, I lost a lot of money too. So what am I to do? well, simple, I have people who owe me money and calculated I have about 6k worth of money that will be returned to me and from there I can settle my debt.

But hey! It aint that simple, these fellos who owe me money are good talkers and they talk a lot of crap jus to shy away from their problems. And what abt me? What do i do? NOTHING!

I let them talk and I give them leniency. Why am I so nice to them?? WHY WHY WHY?!?!

I dunno, I jus feel VERY wasted now. I shuden have been thru this crap at all. I have a WONDERFUL girlfriend in which stands by my side whenever i'm in need of her. I dunno, at times I really feel like ending my life.

I never in fact regretted whenever I think of death. There's this part of me in which I really do accept death and sometimes I really cant wait for it to come. But then, there's another weird side that starts making me feel that I really need to stay alive because of the people who are around me. My friends, families and even loved ones.

But the thing is, I'm so super arrogant and very high in my ego that I cant beg down to bring myself to lower my standards. Even when I am wrong, I will try to prove im right. I dunno that's just me. I cant accept loses. But what i noe its im easily hurt and I never show it.

I never liked to. Well, I guess after this it'll end my emotional run of the day. It jus sucks being a teen right now. I jus wished I was jus born and living a care-free life like a baby!

Ok, i know its been awhile since i last wrote something on here. haha. and yea, lem lem, my blog post's almost a month old!

I have been really busy lately and come to think of it, I'm kinda lazy to blog about certain stuffs. But what you all can know is that in the past month, HELL loads of stuffs happened to me. Things which u never had expected to happen did happen and i cant quite help to keep it from happening. Ah, well, there's too much to say on what happened, but what was it is reali emotional i guess.haha.

Anyway, im kinda lazy to keep updating but i'll do so soon. haha. I'm off for a nap now, tired ah. haha. UPdate soon i guess..