it comes and go as it pleases and life's just like that. one time you know a friend and next you know they're not there, dead or just gone, like the wind.

no point dreading over lost cause or try and make amendments cos it will never happen and somehow that's what some causes seem to be. recent years and experience taught me one thing, a minor slip up will turn into a major upset.

so far the day turn out fine for me. and i guess my time for relationships hasn't settled yet. met up with my ex finally after dunno how long but yea, it was good seeing her again. feelings came flying back like nobody's business. but hmm, i guess feelings are just meant to toy arnd with what you think may happen.

Anyway, i had fun hanging with her and her friend which was kinda interesting cos they seem to share a common knowledge about each other but of course they been friends for too god damn long to know what will come next after the next second passes.

But still, I cant bring myself to ever except her again cause of past emotional experiences. People say, forgive and forget, but i think that's all bullshit when it comes to real first hand happenings. Try being in my shoes and you will know what i mean. haha.

Okay, so training has been fun lately and I'm kinda glad madhu recommended me to the club. I definitely owe him cos, if it wasn't for what he did, I wouldn't even have started soccer again. Oh well, aiming for the best but gotta work hard for it.

Somehow, the days now seemed shorter than usual and nights too. I find it hard sometimes to accept truths and somehow I believe so much in lies that i tend to forget where reality lies. School's been a bore and life just seems to rotate amongst the weird and abnormal. Like a ferris wheel that doesn't stop spinning would end up breaking down one day.

I gotta spice it up somehow with whatever i can do to it. 2008 seems better than 2009 but what more can you ask for when you're turning 18 soon? I'm getting old and although a lot of ppl like the idea of being 18 I know, one day, I'll feel the same of being younger again. but let that day come where reminissence can only savour the true memories of one's past life.

tomorrow will be another day of circle. But i guess i can look forward for something when it comes up. hopefully another meeting with that girl would be great, but it seems distant now. and a new life awaits those who wants to grab it.

funny little blog post but i guess that's how i relate my life to what's happening right now.