dead blog dead blog, its beginning to sound like madshit dead, madshit dead. haha. Random shit. ah, well, im bored and feeling tired but cant really get any shut eye actually.

well, not much interesting thing happened ever since the day of my birth till now. just some random events that's been happening and a cute incident that happened ytd at powerhouse. okay well, so we all over reacted by a bit! haha.

well, now it some how seems to voice down to a meer thing which is making me feel like shit or rather feel empty inside.

I guess i just missed the time when im loving someone or rather someone loving me at the same time. Well, most people would agree with me that parent's love are the best but at times i beg to differ. But who knows which you choose would be great for you. some say, parents, others tell you affection but then you decide what's best for yourself.

anyhow, although i dun show it that often or rather my ego denies my action of feeling lonely and wanting to love someone again. Somehow I'm saving it for the best girl out there but till today there's only one and that one doesn't seem to be reacting much to the situation. well, i dun really wanna ask much of it or from her. after all, i love being frens with her and to stay happy with her is indeed good enough. but still, i want to go back to the days where i could hold her and she would lie on my shoulders and say words that would make my day.

but then again, everyone chooses their own paths to walk on, forcing it would mean harm and chaos which no one would like to have. I wanna protect her but no, i have to stay true to my agreement with her. It shouldn't be the case of a cowardly act but instead to be a man and stand by my words.

See, i agree that when you look at couples in the streets these days you would envy them and sometimes wonder why not me? but i keep telling myself that one day people would envy me instead, it keeps me going. Well, being single is fun but when you used to come from a background that you're always involve in a relationship, you will tend to have the urge to want someone by ur side again.

That's what's happening to me now but im only 18, its still a long way to go before i will decide who will be my life long partner. well, enjoy the days while i still can cos who knows, one day, life would just turn around and go the way i want it to. :)