Last night I was in bed thinking about how my life just sped by without me knowing how fast it would be and how seriously old im growing into. Its already 2009 and Im freaking 18 this year with a second year to study at RP and of course to complete some achievements for this year.
And just recently, i was looking through posts that were typed out and publish about how I went through my past and how childish i'd been then. But now, seeing the changes in my attitude and the changes in my thinking, i guess growing up was exactly fun afterall. I went through my pictures as well when i was in sports school and it was kinda funny to see me in my younger days. It was exhilarating.
But what made me decide to post this is cos of a dream i had last night. I dreamt i went on a holiday with some friends and sadly, we were kidnapped and held hostage for about a week before i saw each and everyone of my friends died due to the torture of the rebels. but the funny thing was this, they could have retaliated and fought back before dying, but they didn't and instead just stood there waiting to die, with smiles on their faces. It was both a sad and happy sight and of course, I was the last to go; with a bullet through my head.
And of course it was a dream. But the dream had a meaning to it. It goes like this that you have one shot at life, and if you don't treasure the moment, the fun, the happiness, the sadness, and the love, you'll never get to enjoy what life truly is. And when it comes to the final moment of your last breath, you'd suddenly realize that you haven achieve what you wanted to do and that's when you start panicking and beg to live on...
I have wishes and I would like to have one wish that would hopefully come true. I wish to be a happy teen for as long as my teenage years allow me to and i wished that this wished would come true after i end this post.
But no matter if it doesnt.
Life is full of wonders and surprises, I just hope my life doesnt take a wrong turn again...
eddysrah♥
