I know what's happening here
One minute it's love
And suddenly it's like a battlefield"
- Jordin Sparks
Well, just like those words above, one moment it was love, the next it was a war.
All hell break lose, when the truth emerge within the depths. It was fun at the start, having supper, and watching Daddy at home, when my hunches got the batter of me.
I'm afraid, im lost. Im actually fighting this war without any armory or shields. No words of comfort can actually help me in fact, only those of her words are satisfactory.
How can I bring about myself to face her? When so many wrongs are pointing at me, when I have nothing to block myself against. I only can imagine a life now gone without her. Im killed within by her feelings. It's like a sharp blade of knife stabbed through the heart and killing me at that instance.
I wanna say im immune to it, but i can't. I wanna say i can handle this but i know i cant either. The only thing i have left are my morals and a slight glimpse of hope. I cant go on like this where the war i know would be hard before it came to an end.
I've been trained to be physically strong, but mentally, im just like any other who's weak and cant handle that intense fighting.
YEs there should be war, but is it worth the fight? Is it worth fighting for a love that's so pure and free?
Is it worth fighting for the same reason as eating?
I know my part was wrong that inflicted this war, but then again, was initiating the truth a right thing to do? Or should I have actually kept my mouth shut and dun even question her rights? I'm regretting what i've done but is it too late to regret?
I just hope for a better chance and I hope for her again.
I just wished the love of my life would return and say those 3 words which i suddenly miss within the battle to survive.
eddysrah♥
