Its strange that almost after one month of the break up and I am still feeling the stupid effects. It's the first that I am feeling like this and I never really have imagined that it would be this tough to actually get over and accept that she's gone.

I would like to imagine that process, but I cant. Hmm, it actually saddens me more than anything else because somehow, songs that I listen to makes sense. It has a greater impact to the lyrics and I kinda can relate to how the artist feels, or rather how they can relate to how I feel. Doesn't matter.

I know I did make mistakes, I mean who doesn't but then again, I'd like to make up for these mistakes. But is it that difficult? Maybe it is.

I dun wanna talk much but if its moving that I am suppose to do. I'll try, but no guarantee that I can because, she's the only girl that I could love this long and care still even after breaking up.

It's weird...but I know she doesn't feel the same at all. :) Im glad that she's much more stronger than me. hehe.