Anyway, here's the downside about life, it seems that after a longggggg uncertain and abruptly ended relationship, you tend to open your eyes a little more wider than usual. I had this realization that most girls or women tend to be very flirtatious or being very extra attractive when it comes to the boys, esp those who just finished a r/s. Now, like all men, we are semi-attracted to this scent and in a way, it becomes very obvious that someone's hitting on someone. I've had my fair share of maidens but then again, after knowing what they are, it seems that these fairly maidens are none other than monsters. hahah. okay, so maybe monster's not the right word to use but rather very obnoxious towards men. It's weird.
Doesn't matter, I seem to be able to find peace in MCR's, A7X ans Skillet's songs whenever I listen to them. Bullet For My Valentine's harsh but its okay too. Their song kinda makes me know what to do and how to get over this bitch that's in my head and move on with this boring fucking life of mine. Haha, so Zacky says, if she shoves you, you break her arm, if she kicks you, you break her head, but if she pierces ur heart, than u just seal it with glue. Fucking barstard cant give a more serious help now can he?
Ahh well, like I said, when you break up, you discover what she's like with her friends, esp her guy frens, you should check out her FB. Notice how all her old crushes comes flopping back one by one like some sorrow losers craving for her attention hahah. MY GOD, SHE'S BEING WORSHIPPED LIKE A BEAUTY PAGEANT. and i used to be with this kind of girl? hahaha, that sickens me in fact. But what about My FB? hahah, no updates, just waiting to rot. Okay doesn't matter, she'll think she's wanted in life and im not but what gives? She's the ring leader, and im just your plain average guy in life.
Its cool that she chose to let go, one fren told me its not my fault but her lost, I told her, cant be cause i made the mistake and she calmly said," you did the right thing in admitting ur mistake, but she's dumb to not see it." after that line i was like...."Wow...." in my own world. I mean, it didnt come across me that way at all but ya, she did mentioned that personality problems are part of a person being ego, so i guess its safe to say she has personality issues about herself. In a way, she thinks she's high and majestic, and looks down on fallen souls. LOL.
What gives anyway right? She's just another girl, that's to put it bluntly across to those reading this, but to put it in a more complex manner, she's a girl that's no different from your any other girls, so what makes a girl different and special?
That's what I need to find out and certainly it seems I am getting closer to knowing that answer.
eddysrah♥
