Its never easy being around you, its never easy to see you again and again. One's happiness is another's sadness. That's the fact. You're happy im not, but what can I do? NOTHING apparently.
OK fine, you have your ways of dealing things I dun think I have mine. Right, you're mad at me, I dunno what to say. Let's put it this way that I not only cared but its this feeling that I can't let out or describe at all.
Right again, that YOU'RE-ALL-SO-GREAT! I cant seem to piece things tgt now as I did last time. I know, I've done a great deal to hurt you. But why am I still hurting even after when there's nothing left? :(
Confession: I didn't wanna be part of your birthday surprise, but I was invited to, not by you but by you-know-who. Reason being, its the least I could do. And one more thing, I didn't join cos I know, I'm not worthy of such things from you any more. Plus like i said, I'd rather hide the feelings now than show it. Cos it doesn't make any more sense to me.
I'm sorry but things are rather difficult for me, I'd hope you come back, but it's not hope that I'll be living on any more. But just a mere fantasy already.
eddysrah♥
